Our Pastor reminded us yesterday, “When you follow God authentically and intentionally, people will be drawn to God as well”.
Makes sense, right? So, I had to really look at the way my week had gone and ask,
Was I authentic?
Was I intentional?
When I sat down to Church, out of breath and late, the usual calm, joy and relief of being in that room overcame me.
Turns out, if I hadn’t set foot inside that Church yesterday, I wouldn’t have witnessed the woman being baptized on the 5th anniversary of losing her son to tragedy. I believe that through her, our Lord was speaking volumes to us. Suddenly, I found myself asking exactly what I had complained about all week? Did I really have it so bad?
Our Pastor began talking about Daniel, and how his trust in our Lord enabled him to walk through the lion’s den and come out unscathed.
Could I make the claim that I had an unwavering faith?
The truth is, I had a very difficult week. I was honestly holding back tears as I sat in Church trying to let go of the stress and anger that had built up inside of me over the last couple of days.
It seemed that I just couldn’t catch a break.
And, it dawned on me that over the course of the week I had immersed myself in my worries, rather than in my Bible. I have been going strong and doing well since raising my hand and re-committing myself to the Lord a few weeks ago. I have been praying and reading faithfully and I can definitely feel my relationship with God growing in such a way that it never has before.
But, I had to admit that for a few days there this week things got really tough for me. And, I turned away from Him rather than turning towards Him. Sure, I still read scripture and sure I still prayed. But, my heart wasn’t all in. I was focused on the “silly stuff”.
And, that’s just what our Pastor said. That, when we put our trust in something else, we lose sight of Him. That, when we focus on money or other such silly things, this clouds our view of Him.
And it became clear to me that I just can’t get to Him, with all of that “stuff” in the way.
He has asked me to seek Him with all of my heart. And this past week I was so angry. stressed, bogged down and overwhelmed that I dallied in the Bible and in prayer on my own terms, not His.
And, definitely not with my whole heart.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”. Jeremiah 29:11 (our Pastor gave us this as our memory verse for this week)
So, I just have to have the utmost trust in His plans. Even when I am so weary I feel I am about to break. I have to do more than just cry out to Him for strength. I must have faith that with him I can muster all the energy I’ve got.
I can be gracious.
And, I can be stronger.
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